SCB KL International Marathon - 28th June 2009

Kudos to hubby for finishing his first ever marathon! Congratulations !
Me and Jasmine are so proud of you dear!

Thanks to All (Dad's Demise)

Salam to all friends and anyone who know me and my family.

On behalf of my mum and family members, I would like to thank all of you for the condolences poured out.  Some even texted me and called.  Praise be to Allah, especially for having all of  you as part of my journey during this hard time my family had to endeavour.  All in all, we redha for his demise. Ajal maut di tangan Allah. No one could ever against it.

He's gone....forever.......

Last Thursday night, 23rd April 2009,at around 7.20pm, dad has passed away....in his last wudhu' for Maghrib prayer, by mum's side.  Dad was not in ICU, not hospitalised as usual, but in a pink of health in the week of his demise.  According to mum, on the day itself, dad managed to run final errands including repairing my mum's shoes and picked up his few shirts from nearby laundrette(he did not want to bother mum to do ironing for him, mum is not very well lately). I still remembered the last time I called, dad kept asking(as if to assured himself) when I mentioned would return home this coming weekend.  Takde rezki nak jumpa...

I really could not scribble much.  I could not even be in his room!  There's still an old family album of all his kids when we were toddlers.  I even found my wedding's door gift kept nicely in his cupboard.  But mum is very strong, she said she feel grateful for what she had shared with dad. They grow old and grey together, spent more than fifty marriage's years together.  I know mum will miss dad a lot. So do I.

Dad, we missed you! May your soul rest within the solleh'ful soleh.  Al-Fatihah. 

Hj Abdul Aziz Ishak in memory

27 Rabiulakhir 1430H

1928 - 2009

 

Happy Birthday Me!

Alhamdulillah, I get another year older last week. I still vividly felt in my college years back in States. But it was a decade ago! Time flies sooooo fast that I am now a wife and a mother to a lovely husband and a cheeky 4-year-old daughter. But anyway, I feel great being able to breathe HIS air and granted a healthy life so far. Hubby was the first person to wish me in the morning. Though it was through text messaging, but OK la...considering he gets to the office very early(I'm still in bed).

On this very day,the first thing happened to me was really unbelievable. After sending my girl to her montessori, I rushed to the nearby wet market with the intention to buy chicken. I intended to cook chicken rice to bring to the office. In my mind, I was thinking that things need to be done, especially the cooking, in fast mode as my shift starts around noon and it was already 9am. So it only left me with roughly two and half hours to cook, fetch my girl, send her to babysitter's house, then rushed to office. (To those who still doesn't know, I work with foreign investor services provider and the work only start around noon, just to match Luxembourg time zone).

Know what happened?I accidentally locked my car with the engine was still on! Hahaha....I'm getting forgetful on turning this new age! What a gift on my birthday!

Luckily, hubby's office is nearby, only in UK Heights, so I make the 'urgent' and 'rescue-me-please-dear' called to hubby. While waiting, I bought chicken and few ingredients for my chicken rice. When hubby arrived, he just smiled and handed me his spare key.

In the office, most of them had my chicken rice including my Business Expert aka BE. Estelle really liked it, saying this was first time she tried chicken rice in Malaysia. My shift ends around 9pm and to my surprise before heading home, my team members already bought a birthday cake from Secret Recipe! I was so thrilled that night. We had the cake together before leaving.

When I reached home, hubby said he did not have anything for my birthday only a slice of cake he bought on his way home from clientelle meeting. I said to him, I didn't really hope to get a present on my birthday because I felt quite old now. And my girl sang birthday song to me."Mama, eppi beday! Kakak nyanyi kay...Eppy beday to you...eppy beday to you...." With her soft and sweet voice, that is really an exclusive gift for me! Suddenly hubby went inside his study room and brought out a large paper bag. I screamend with excitement! Surprise, it was a handbag! " I always wanted a handbag dear!"(true, m not lying...hehhehehehhe)

Reached Half-Decade Mark!

Praise be to GOD!

Half-a-decade! That's something. Yup, it's our anniversary!

On last 29th November marked our fifth anniversary. I am truly grateful with this marriage. Blessed with one three-year old girl, we learn more of our roles and responsibilities. Everyday is special with a lot of things to explore and experience. Off course we experience our ups and downs along the trails.

It's totally a different life phases between my single life and my marriage life. Before, I would always stayed back in the office, and only came back around 9pm. With my housemates, we always watched mid-nite movies at a nearby 'cheap' cinema or watched any dvds until wee morning; and woke up late on the weekends. Came public holiday, I always rushed back to my hometown to be with my parents.

But now as a wife and mother, everyday I would try to finish my work on time and rush home. I become more organized, focus and occupy with my tasks. I would say it's a pretty balance life. During my early marriage, we still had the mid-nite movies but with our girl now, it's kinda hard to leave her behind(for someone to babysit),even to attend a dinner function. If it's really a wedding reception of a very good friend, then we might opt that only one of us could attend the function. Other than that, we might rsvp nicely not to attend and choose to stay home instead.

Holidays means three of us going together. No such thing as leaving my girl at my in-laws or my parents to babysit while we were away. True, a couple must always find a time being together, being a way for the two of them without any kids trail behind. Maybe when my girl grow up and choose not to follow us, then only it's time for us to have holiday as a couple again. But for now, it's really heartwrenching not to bring her along.

But all in all, I'm grateful to GOD to have a good husband, indeed a very understanding soulmate for our journey together! Love you dear!

Happy Mother's Day!

Ayah: Happy
Jasmine: Eppy
Ayah: Mother's
Jasmine: Maders
Ayah: Day, Mama
Jasmine: Day....mama....
Ayah: Happy Mother's Day, Mama!
Jasmine: Eppy Maders Day Mama!(Chuckled)
Jasmine: I Luv U!

That were the most beautiful things ever happened to me on last mother's day. Hubby teached Jasmine to wish me and she utterred word by word with full enthusiasm. On the special day, I just wanted to had ice-cream with my family! And it turned out my sweet,lovely Jasmine had her biggest share on our ice-cream.

Anyway, Happy Mother's Day to all mother out there, especially to my MUM and MIL!

Perforated Duodenal Ulcer

That's the term the doctor mentioned to us on last Saturday, 3th November 2007, and basically it's:

"What is a peptic ulcer? A peptic ulcer is a hole in the gut lining of the stomach, duodenum, or esophagus. A peptic ulcer of the stomach is called a gastric ulcer; of the duodenum, a duodenal ulcer; and of the esophagus, an esophageal ulcer. An ulcer occurs when the lining of these organs is corroded by the acidic digestive juices which are secreted by the stomach cells."

My dad had been complaining stomach pain right before raya and his health had been deteriorating since then. GP only suspected gastric problem as my dad already had it and had been prescribing usual medicine. But last Friday, he asked my mum to bring him to Putra Medical Centre as he could not bare the pain anymore. (Me, brothers and sisters headed back to Alor Setar once being informed his admission.)

The specialist who attended him performed the endoscopic procedure at once. A flexible tube is inserted through the mouth to inspects the stomach, esophagus and duodenum.The result showed that my dad had ulcer in the stomach and he has a big hole in the duodenum. Duodenum is part of the peptic in our body. In other word, his duodenum already worn out! But the most scary thing is, his chance of surviving is very slim. The doctor needed to perform operation in order to save his life. Before the operation, the doctor explained the consequences we might face. Considering his age(my dad already 80yrs old), the chances of surviving in the operation is 50%. But if we put the operation on hold, his conditions will getting worse and we do not want to see him suffer the illness much longer. We have no choice but to agree with the operation and 'tawakal' to Allah.

I haven't seen my mum been so worried than before. Worst still, she cried and blamed herself for not believing my dad. She told us that dad had been complaining the pain to her for quite some times, yet she still assumed it was just normal gastric. Watching the nurses pushed my dad to the operation theater, she said to my elder sister,KI, " Mak rasa bersalah sangat tapi Mak redha dengan ketentuan Allah. Semoga Allah bagi keputusan yang terbaik untuk Bapak." We(me and KI) tried hard to hold our tears. We told her to be strong and mum could count on us should anything happen.

The operation went well for almost 3 hours. We thanked Allah for it and the most important thing, my dad survived the operation! Even though he was in ICU after the operation, he didn't have to use any life support as he was half conscious after the operation. He only needed to 'puasa' for few days. After five days in ICU, and showing no major complications, they transfered my dad to normal ward. Alhamdulillah! Praise be to Allah!

Now, still warded, our du'a is only for his speedy recovery. We are hoping, especially my mum, that dad will be discharged soon.